1967 first edition | So excited to finally read this. 😈
I honestly don’t remember the last time I was genuinely happy. I know that makes me sound ungrateful, but I appreciate and am happy with the things in my life I was blessed with. I just haven’t been truly happy in a while and it has finally got to me.
I love doing things for the people that I love, because it makes me happy. It’s my way of showing my appreciation and I enjoy seeing others happy as a result. I’m not saying others don’t do things for me. I’ve just never truly felt like I’ve been appreciated at the same level that I show my appreciation for others. I long to get that same satisfaction from others and I wonder when or if I’ll ever get that. Maybe my expectations are just too high. I don’t know.
I also need to learn not to get my hopes up or set expectations for others. Because once they’re not met or you waste time feeling hopeful, it’s nothing but a let down. I feel so silly sometimes hoping for something that I know in my mind won’t happen or work. But if there’s no hope, what else is there?
I’m just rambling a bunch of nonsense that I’ll probably end up deleting later, but I was just feeling very down and depressed today and I needed to let it out. I even worked out at the gym today and that didn’t seem to work. Coming home to an unclean, lonely apartment just added to my negative mood.
Ghost cookies at 1AM in celebration of October! 👻
Pumpkin spice and Chai - I am now ready for fall. 🍂🍁🎃
stop romanticizing unhealthy relationships.
stop thinking you can change someone. you can’t. they need to change for themselves.
stop romanticizing the idea of you two being together some day. if it isn’t happening now, let it go.
no more pouring your heart out for someone who gives you little to no reciprocation.
find someone who values your long letters and passionate attempts. this person will reciprocate, with twice as much fire.
SPREAD THE WORD
I have my first exam today 📝, so I can’t forget breakfast! Having a bowl of old fashioned oats cooked with light almond milk, half a banana, organic honey, and cinnamon. So good! 😋
My lazy Sunday morning breakfast: honey wheat toast with natural peanut butter, half a banana, organic honey, and a dash of cinnamon. ☺️
Pre-workout & post workout 💪
So proud that I’ve been eating healthier and keeping up with a workout routine. I don’t crave junk food like I used to, and I just feel better in general. Cheers to a healthier me!
I know this is TMI, but I asked my boyfriend if he could pick me up some tampons because I ran out and it was late, and he came back with all of this…lol 😍
I just got done working out and I’ve been eating healthy, and now those Oreos and chocolate are taunting me 😩 Why Aron, whyyy!
Lol but no really, that was so sweet of him. 😊
I need to work on my balance.